so yeah... if anyone saw my last post I'll let you know that I did make a few recipes of Jamie's (which were marvelous!) but not nearly as many as I had originally anticipated. Also, I was way too lazy to post anything about them. My summer pretty much revolved around working at Andy's and spending as much time as possible with my family.
I realize that very few people read this, and personally, I am totally fine with that. This is pretty much just a place for me to put down all these random thoughts that seem to be revolving in my head. So, here goes...
Well, I figure I'll start this next topic with this statement: I love Mississippi State. I really do! As in totally adore and am very pleased with all of the opportunities I am given and all of the amazing people I have met here and grown to know and love. But I'm constantly reminded of how much I love home. Growing up, all I ever heard in the school hallways was how ready people were to leave Tyler and go somewhere else. I guess I heard that so much that I began to think that was how I felt, too. Well, until I decided to go to a school at least seven hours away from my beloved home (and that's seven hours if you're choosing to set your own speed limit!). It was hard the beginning of my freshman year, because I didn't know anyone here. Then I met people-- great people, amazing people, people who truly love the Lord. And my life got better. I didn't miss home as much and it wasn't as hard to leave whenever I had to go back to school after a break. Then my spring semester flew by. I looked forward to going back and couldn't wait to see what opportunities would arise for me.
Then this year... I guess I just haven't completely adjusted again after being away for three months during the summer. Don't get me wrong. As I said earlier, I love State. I couldn't imagine going to school anywhere else and being happy, let alone getting a better education that has anything to do with Food Science! But there's nothing that matches the way my heart feels when I cross over state lines back into Texas. I don't want to sound like some bigoted Texan when I say this, but I truly believe Texas is the absolute best place in the U.S. to live. Anything you could want, you can find in Texas. And if for some odd reason, it's not in Texas, well then, you probably shouldn't have it!
I guess my home life is just too good. I love being with all my family-- as odd and crazy as we are. That just makes me love them more. My mama is too good of a mom. My daddy is the best dad in the world. And as far as my brother goes... well, I wouldn't admit it, but he is the best little brother I could have, even if I do want to punch him in the face on a routine basis! I hate that I can't just go to the kitchen and sit on the counter and talk to mama. Or joke around and be overly sarcastic with daddy. I hate the fact that I'm missing Lin's football games, birthdays, etc.
I know that I'm incredibly tired because of trying to get back in the routine of classes, and that's why I'm feeling more emotional than usual. But that still doesn't change the fact that I miss the comforts of home.
I don't know what to think right now. There's just way too much going on for me to try to think about one thing for a long time. I feel stretched in so many ways and I'm just ready to be done with things so that I can have time to rest and relax, but I know that will never come. Because once I'm done with college and all the extracurricular activities, I'll be out in the "real world" and will have a job and bills to pay. But a girl can dream that she'll be able to sleep in and relax, can't she?
Well, I need to go to a class and lab, but I'll probably write more later.
